Thursday, December 22, 2011

Looking For That Christmas Spirit

I have a lot to be thankful for this year. Not the least of which is each and every one of you who take a few moments out of your daily run around to venture my way and check out whatever odd ramblings pop into my wee little head. I'm not sure why you do it (possibly a chemical imbalance), but I greatly appreciate each and every one of you. So much so that I can't easily quantify it in words. And I must say I appreciate you more this year than any prior.

You see, in previous years my blog has rode high on the comment exchange train. You read my blog, I read yours, leave a little nugget of a comment, you return in fine form, and we skate off into the sunset a happy duo of fellow reading. This year though, I can't honestly say I've kept up my end of the bargain. In fact, I'm sad to report my commenting is down by a percentage I dare not calculate for fear of depression. There are excuses a plenty I could give, but the truth is that there are those with far greater commitments than I ever dreamed of doing far more.

Does this make me a bad blogger? Certainly by some level of evaluation, and I wouldn't argue that my blog has reflected this downward shift in gears. Not only in terms of content, but also in terms of enthusiasm. The Movie Picture Code was a healthy bump in the right direction, but I'm far from back on the straight and narrow tracks. Part of that has come from a crisis of faith in my writing - or more precisely my ability to come up with engaging content.

Most of this is years of insecurity battling an over developed ego and trace elements of jealousy mixed in, but I do my best to focus on the positive. And that positive more often than not comes from you. From the wonderful blogathons you come up with to the incomparable podcasts you host there's always something for me to seek out and discover about each and every one of you. Not to mention your consistently engaging content which keeps me coming back for more.

That's right, don't think that just because I don't comment, doesn't mean I don't read. I do so at every chance I get. Sneaking a few minutes here and there whenever my schedule allows. Though it's not enough, and I know it. So as we move forward into the new year, and new year's resolutions and Christmas giving come upon us once again, I felt right in trying to exorcise the demons of 2011's blogging adventure. In the hope that as 2012 comes around I shall be re-invigorated, re-enorgized, and ready to once again deliver unto all of you that kindness for which you have delivered unto me.

Thank You!

- Univarn

4 better thoughts:

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

Sorry to hear you are struggling with the writing! Don't give up. Besides, the support here online from other writers and authors is amazing. And never let blogging become a burden. We don't get paid for this you know. (Well, some people do. Unless someone buys my book, I'm doing it all for the sheer fun of it!)
Hope you find your Christmas spirit.

Jessica said...

So many blogs start out bravely and so very few survive in the long run. I have the feeling that you're one of the survivors. Because insecure or not, you're passionate enough to care and brave enough to reach out. Maybe you're just stressing out too much about it, requireing too much of yourself.
When the inspiration is lacking sometimes taking a stroll around other bloggers places, getting enthusiastic or furious over something can help and spark the fire within yourself.

In any case: please accept my best Christmas wishes.

And a few hugs.

your fellow blogger

Andrew Robinson said...

Merry Christmas to you as well...
I suffer from almost all the things you mentioned there but at times I push through with my postings of the day... :)

Thanks for the love to my podcast :)

See you in 2012

Alex said...

Hey, you, I'm sorry to hear you've been having writing problems but I still think you're pretty great! Loving the Movie Picture Code and different editorials you've had. And I know what you mean about commenting, I've fallen off this year too, can't really explain why. I don't think it makes you a bad blogger, though!

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